Many of us look back at our teenage behaviour and cringe. But when Karen Winther looks back nearly twenty years to her fifteen year-old self, it is with a sense of full blown horror. A difficult relationship with her mother drove Winther out of her home and to the Blitz – a left-wing squat, filled with angry youthful idealists determined to stem Norway’s growing tide of neo-Nazism. But when her new ‘friends’ failed to provide the haven she craved, Winther turned against them in an act of still astonishing betrayal. She now returns to those she betrayed, including her mother and close friends, trying to understand what drove her to take such drastic action. With the wisdom of maturity and the help of angst ridden diary entries, she is able to slowly piece together a portrait of the teenager she has struggled for so long to forget.